Ah, been there, done that. OKAY JUST KIDDING!!!! JOKE!!! It's great you were able to go to a club and go dancing. Yes, it does mess with your head when you begin having all of these different thoughts, sexual desires and a need or want to explore. Reading about all of the options certainly creates the sparks. But also, we want and many of us need that one committed relationship perhaps to ground us--maybe it's like your husband is holding your string and you're a kite flitting and flying through the air right now, being swayed by different currents. So it seems like all this is new and writing in the various publications of Medium sparked the desires and led you to physically get active. Each experience can have similarities but they're unique to us personally. So glad you wrote. And I have had a few guy experiences. I'm much more attractive than my current profile representation. Lol!